how how how

how? wat u want? i dun noe?
i just noe i wan de future u cant give me....
everytime i ask about future then u keep silent ady
when u keep silent then u got think about wat i think?
or u wan to say brain is mine one , u cant control wat i think?
then u noe u can choose to do somethings sweet things let me dun think too much?
sometime u really so self fish u noe it?
u got think wat i wan?
u will plan go here go there...then u got plan when u wan back with me?
need i call u back u only back?
u noe all my parent them keep asking me y u dint follow me back?
they think we fight u noe?
haiz i cant control u , if u wan keep like tis ....i speechless

my dear u always think u so understand me, sometimes i emo also because worry about u ...ya i noe wat u think u not a kid , but i m your bf , i dun hope some unlucky happend to u ...u noe i always see many kes girl give rape i also worry about tis .....some time i think i really crazy ...but i do de is wrong meh?protect my gf also is wrong ?? i emo? then u noe y i will emo ? u will make me happy ? u wan me believe u , then y u dun wan do somethings to let me trust u , y i will worry because i ask all about our future de things u also wont be answer....every1 also will think future but u tell me , 2moro de things no ppl will noe so u cant promise me any ....i no need your promise i just wan u to care about me .....wat is care? when i sad , u just will say i always emo de la,already biasa....then which day u will ask me y i will emo ? u noe my life is diffrent with u , your mom , dad , or family all is rich , when u need somethings they also will buy for u , if u no money they will give u , so u no need worry . sorry i diffrent with u , i very like your family life all will support u , u noe wat is my family ?? my family is poor , we earn how many then need to pay back ah long how many , u noe i live at subang dint have easy for my work ...i just wan to stick with u , from your mom say will rent a house at subang here then i noe our love will got many happend ady , because u wan to take care your mom....ya take care your mom is right , i cant say anythings , but u also dun say last time i always bring u go out , but u noe now we live together almost i 2 day need to spend 150 , 50 for petrol , and aroud 100 for 2 day dinner....u noe y i dun wan hutang u ?
ok i tell u 4 years ago , we break tat time , i ask u y u wan break with me u give me de reason is wat ? u all not remember ..... u just remember because i touch u ....then u noe u also give me reason because always ask me go out i also say no money....but u noe 4 years ago tat time my dad bankrup? y i live at maluri but my family live at jinjang ? because my dad sell my maluri house ady , but i still need continue study at maluri so i paksa live at my aunt house....u will think my house economy? not ppl like u de k?
i also hope i can go study ....u ask me y dun wan study always give myself reason ....ya i give my self reason because i dun wan my family they so tired ....i tired nvm.....now i live back kepong , i hope u can noe i live at subang tis few month i try to do a good husband.....but watever i do my best ady sure got somethings u dislike de
dear .... dun think i m nth ....y i emo?
 i worry my house u noe my fucker cousion wan to damage my family?
and my work de worker all think i still young i dunnoe eveythings , eveytime come to challenge my baseline, and i need to show them , all the things i noe to do , not just use the mouth to manage de....and my boss office de supervisior now challenge with us also, because he noe boss dislike him ady adn pass alll the job for us, but still got some projek is under tis supervisior de...and tis guy always make us rugi  and wan tell boss out work is not work de....we want to protect ourself so we must do best , dun let him got reason to tell boss our bad....
and seksyen 17 here also very dangerous ady , tis owner de things always cant comfirm for us , tis projeck should 5 month can done de but nth she always say tis need changes tat v.o so make our job can finish ....continue like tis tis projek we dint earn any money....
u noe i need to manage so many side so high pressure , so reach home ady no energy to smile le, u got say any things support me de? u just will say i always emo .....sometimes i really cant tell u all my things because i worry i tell u all my things ady u will leave me ....
and dear in love if any happend also is our false dun say is you own wrong or my wrong
exp: y i dun wan let u late back? becuase i worry u , y u need so late back ? any billion projek?NO u just need yc only...yc need until so late and drunk it?
exp: u say i dint trust u , see your message , ya i see your message because i dun wan u leave me, if u feel i dun trust u , then y u can do somethings to let me noe u r love me?
girl is vey wired.....but i wan say de things dear i do my best ady ...all i do my best ady just 1 things i dint do ....sorry i still poor so cant give u brand , and always travel with u ...
hope 1 day u will stick me and let me noe u need me , u love me, watever my life is zero